ღ Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Just finished RJ and everything.I am so tired. Yet i cant slp. Same for the past few days. How long will this go on? Why is so hard to forget someone?Or mayb i had nv tot of forgetting you at all.*Hoping for miracles.
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11:39 PM
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U reali have misunderstood me.
Or mayb i didn explain myself clearly to you.
But you said everything.
Everything.
Wanted to find time to talk to you.
But now.
I dun think i even have the chance to.
You really hate me alot.
It really hurts.
*'i hate you' is 3 words i wld nv wana hear.
But no matter how much you have hurt me.
I still love you.
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10:59 PM
ღ Monday, July 13, 2009
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Haii.You made me realised that.We really have a lot of misunderstandings between us.
I really duno wad to do now.I really dun want to go on like this with u.Its tiring.Its scary.Its driving us crazy.But i know.Its not ur fault.You have not done anything wrong. What happens today.Is because of me.Unable to control myself.I thought i wld not love you as much as i thought i would be.But until everything ends.I found out that.I have fallen in love with you so deeply. N the truth is.Its more than what i thought.Everything's just changed in a day.N it's really hard to accept.I'm really trying very hard to.Really very hard.But don't worry.I really mean what i have said to you.This time i ll really do it.N i know u wont give in to me anymore.I will face everything on my own.*我真的怕了.
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8:12 PM
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I'm sorry.Though ytd night was terrible.You said something really hurtful.Something i wld nv want to hear it from you.Does talking to you mean i got a motive?A need?Is that what you think of me?You said if i ever need you.
You will just be a phone call away.
But why?
Why ishn it the way it suppose to be?
If things were to be like this.I wldn have talk to you at all.But glad u found ur happiness.
Hope everything goes well for you.
Jyjy.
~Is it a lie?
Is it an empty promise?
Or u have nv meant wad u have said at all?
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10:18 AM
ღ Sunday, July 12, 2009
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Haii.
Now even 1 hurtful word or sentence from you.
Can make my tears drop.
I'm really hurt.
*Love can't seem to be fake.
When you love someone.
Even if u cant see or hear him.
U ll still think of him. Its just like how u love her.Looks like only she can make u smile.But i just want to tell u that. If u r happy.I ll be happy for you too.But if u ever need someone.To lend u a listening ear.I want u to remember.U still have me.Just a phone call ll do.Boy, i ll always b there for you.
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7:22 PM
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Ytd service.Finally June cm.Miss her alot! =pGues wad.I can learn singing for just $15 for 5 lessons.From Ocean butterflies!Wakakaka. :DToday my bro bdae. Happy bdae bro! (:Hahs. Which oso mean.I can eat cake later. :p~If things were to turn out like this. I wish i had nv knew u. Maybe u ll be much happier. Will u? Haii. I'm sorry.I duno how to face u nw. Seeing u like this. Makes me feel so guilty. :(
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11:27 AM
ღ Thursday, July 9, 2009
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Ok.Now the 4th post.I think i break record le. 1 day post 4 posts!I know its abit kua zhang.But still. Nvm.I shall start and end fast too.Cause i wan and i need to rest. =x Hmm. I gues i finally came to my senses. After suffering a very big blow. For a moment, I thought i was goin to faint.N i was so scared.lols. Lucky my 'guardian angel' saved me. Thanks luhs.N sorry. :( Hmm.Please feel free to tok to me anytime, anywhere, anything.Seriously,I would be more than happy to. Because i want u know that u r not alone. (: I know we wont and cant be the same anymore.I know i'm abit weird.But give me some time ok? I ll get over all these. I ll be normal.lols.I know i'm abit crappy here.But u should know what i meant right?Well.Gues it will be the last time i'm gona say this.~Baby, i miss you.Baby, i love you. Muacks. <33
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11:48 PM
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Its the 3rd time i'm blogging today.How can so many things hapen in one day?God.Are you testing me?Devil.Are you playing with me?Tell me.I really cant stand it anymore.I'm breaking down soon.Please,Give me the strength to carry on.All i feel like doing now is crying.I really cant hold on anymore. Why?Why must things turn out like this?I'm sorry for everything.Really sorry.It's all my fault. My fault for controlling him.My fault for not giving him any freedom.My fault for stopping him from doing what he wants.My fault for making him give in to me again and again.N for whoever who want to know.All along is i love him.He has nv like or love me at all.Its all one-sided love.Get it?I bought it upon myself.I dun have the right to blame anyone.Whatever ur want to say or ask,
Tell me, Ask me ok?Leave him alone.N i'm sorry if i have hurt anyone here.*Stephy's heart dead. She loves no one anymore but him.
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8:13 PM
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I know everything's goin to back to the starting point.I'm sorry.I'm avoiding.I'm running away from reality.I'm afraid to face the fact that we cant be the same anymore.But looks like i cant be like this anymore.I promise i ll try my best to stop avoiding. I promise i ll try my besy to stop running away from reality.I promise i ll try my best to face the fact that we can only be friends. But please,Give me some time.I'm sorry i still ♥ u.I'm sorry i still miss u.I'm sorry i still think of u.I'm sorry i still care about u.I'm sorry i still cant forget u.I'm sorry i broke my promise.
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6:08 PM
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As days goes by, I started to realise.Instead of trying to face the reality,I'm trying to treasure the time I'm spending with u. I even tried to make myself busy. Because the moment I'm alone, I will start to think about u and everything.I dun want to.Because i duno wad ll happen.But I'm happy with the relationship I'm having with u nw. N thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts with me. Thanks for saying i ♥ u.Thanks for bringing back some of our memories.Thanks for everything.Just like what i have said. It's not ur fault. So dun b sad. I ll trust u just like i always do. (:
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12:31 PM
ღ Sunday, July 5, 2009
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It has been 67 days and i'm letting him go.
It's not what i want.
But i guess it is what i should do.
Boy,
It's not your fault.
I fall for you first.
Dun blame yourself.
Dun torture youself.
Dun say sorry to me anymore.
It hurts.
It has been 2 days that my life is without you.
I duno if i can face you like how i used to face you.
Treat you like i used to as a friend.
When we just knew each other.
I really duno.
Because i still dare not face the fact.
The moment i hear or think that.
I should stop loving you.
I should stop treating the way i used to treat you.
My heart breaks.
N tears will drop.
So i nv want to think bout it till now.
I want to keep my promise.
But how long can i run away like this.
I'm sorry.
I gues i cant keep my promise.
But i will try my very best to.
But what hurts me most is what's in your heart.
You really love her alot.
N i didn know everything from the very start.
I gues if i had nv ask you.
I will nv know what you have done.
I was really surprised.
N my heart sank.
It has been 2 months and 1 week.
N yet you......
I gues i can nv replace her in your heart.
But i will support you.
I will give you the courage.
To approach.
To grab hold.
N nv let go of the happiness that you've been longing for.
Thanks for being honest with me.
Thanks for the sweets.
Thanks for the beautiful memories.
Just like wad gf say.
One day the pain will go and only the memories will be kept.
I duno when ll that day come.
But i know it's definitely not now.
When you ask me what i want to do.
I want to do a lot of things with you.
For it's the last time.
But at a second thought.
I decided not to.
Tts y i told you nothing.
Because i know if i had did the things i want to with you.
I will cry.
I will not let you go.
Because i cant bear to.
N there ll be more memories of us.
Which ll make me even more sad.
I even want you to say i love you to me for the last time.
But what's the point.
When there's no meaning to it.
But i ll stay strong.
Like i always do.
I ll move on with my life.
Try my very best to keep the promises.
Boy,
You must be tired.
From this day onwards.
I nv want you to be angry with me.
Nv want you to worry about me.
I'm sorry for what i have done tt made you unhappy.
Tt made you angry.
All i asked for now is what you have promised me.
To be happy.
N i want you to be who you wana be.
The life without me.
But if you ever need me. Like what you said.
I ll only be one call away.
I will miss you alot.
*Xuanyou, i ♥ u.
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9:03 PM
ღ Thursday, July 2, 2009
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I'm speechless nw.Nothing in words can express how i'm feeling nw.Haii.What shld i do?
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1:20 PM
ღ Wednesday, July 1, 2009
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Lalas.1 week pass so fast.But gd luhs.Honestly speaking.I rather go sch.I'm so bored at hm.N eLearning is so "good"! >< My gf and xy fell sick. Hope they will get well soon. (:My desktop spoil.lols.Lucky still gt my laptop. =pToday's Cecilia and Shogun bdae. Happy birthday to the both of you! Hahs. :DIts decentralised weekend.We shall E1R1! Looking forward to it. Hahs. =DD~Boy, imy! :x
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